Helpless

One of the worst feelings that I have ever experienced is to feel helpless. When something is wrong and there is nothing you can say or do that will change it.

There are two men in my life who mean the world to me, for very different reasons. Each of them, at this particular moment in time, is dealing with a pain that I can’t remove, or even lessen. My heart hurts for them both, but there is nothing I can do for either of them.

My very best friend is dealing with the possibility of a very tangible loss, while the man I have loved for most of my life is grieving an emotional loss.

I feel useless. I can’t soothe either one, and they are both too far away for me to offer any physical comfort—no hug, or hand-holding, or even a comforting pat on the shoulder. And emotional support, while appreciated, literally does nothing to dull the pain. I can pray for each to have peace, but even that seems so inadequate.

I just feel so helpless…